It's in the genes.

I think a few people are a little confused as to why I want to help PK's. I think they assume it just comes out of negativity but it really doesn't.

Let me explain.

Pastor's kids are special, I think we all know that. They have a character, experience, life and calling on their life that no other person has. They have a legacy and a heritage to fulfill. Many Pastor's Kids end up in the ministry despite the fact that (as my youth pastor put so nicely) they have enough hurt and anger that if it was a atomic bomb it could destroy the whole of Manhattan.

We have been called be God to work in the ministry yet part of us just so desperately never wants to set foot into a church again. Like Jonah we want to run far away from the calling of God because we have seen the hurt and the pain that being in the ministry can cause. Even if the church you grew up in was 'the best church possible' and even if they were 'amazing to you' a Pastor's child will more likely than not have hurts even though nothing 'extremely bad' ever happened to them.

It's just that most PK's can probably remember those nights as a kid where there Dad was at church meetings or praying with other people instead of being at home with them. They can remember those christmas's which were involved around church instead of family. They remember all the holidays that were cut short cause there was a death in the church or a wedding to attend. This does not mean that our Dad's were a bad parents or that the church was bad. The fact is that our Father's loved us and did the best for us but sometimes their job (I'm trying desperatly not to say that it was more important cause its not like that at all, but I don't know how else to put it) was important from a eternal aspect. Because of these memories there are a lot of hurts. It's nothing personal, its just what happens when you belong to a ministry.

So I basically want to help Pastor's Kids step into the position of ministry they have been called to in the best way possible. I want to help them deal with those hurts and be able to make decisions which would mean that as they become leaders and pastors and missionaries they can do it in a way which is God honoring. That they can rwach their full potential. They have such a heritage of wealth, wisdom and leadership. It's in the genes.

We are not alone in this world, even though we have our secrets.

I have four favourite websites. The first one being www.postsecrets.com which is one of the most visited websites in the world. It is a website where people make annonymous postcards with a secret that they have never told anyone on front of the postcard and they send it into a man by the name of Frank Warren.

Frank Warren started this as a social experiment a few years ago. He created blank postcards with his address on the back and encouraged people to write their secrets on the front and send them into him. At first he just posted the empty postcards into peoples letter box's or put them in books at the library. He got such an amazing response that he decided to put the best ones on a website and it soon became a global phenomenom. (For the whole story see this link http://fromuktouswithlove.blogspot.com/2010/08/postsecret-august-6-2010.html)

Now every Sunday Frank puts up about 20 of his favourte post cards that week. I have to say, getting on the computer on Monday is so exciting!! I so look forward to seeing what people have shared that week. Some days I'm left laughing, other days I'm left crying. It's such an eye opening website. You realise that behind the masks of everyday people lie such hurt, such joy and such ambition.

One Sunday Postcard said this: I have lived in San Francisco since I was young. I am illegal. I am not wanted here. I don't belong anywhere. This summer I plan to jump off the Golden Gate. This postcard sparked a campaign. A campaign called 'Please don't jump'. There is a group on facebook supporting it. A comment that someone left on the page sum's up the power of sharing that very secret: I can't ever imagine how the person that made this secret must feel. There's this massive and immensely supportive Facebook fanpage. There's been a Time article or two about this secret. Frank even speaks on Capital Hill about this secret. I really do wonder what happened to this individual. How they feel about the impact they've had. I wonder if they even realize the impact that they have made. I wonder if they still want to jump.

No one knows who this person is, or if they are still alive. But this campaign has stopped many people from committing suicide. On the facebook page there's almost 500 photo's of different people with 'Please don't jump' written on their hands. It is so powerful. The Postsecret's website is now dedicated to raising money for suicide support. Frank Warren is a speaker who goes round talking about suicide prevention.

The website shows true human emotion. It's raw and honest. It makes me think about how the world would be if we were that honest in real life. This website has made me realize that I am not alone, no matter what happens. That there are people out there who feel exactly the same way, who do exactly the same things as me. We are not alone in this world, even though we have our secrets.

An apology and a explanation.

I know about a year ago I wrote a whole lot of stuff about being a Pastor's Kid (PK). Helping PK's is something I am really passionate about and I know some of you were wondering why I stopped writing about it. The reason was that people in the church my Dad was a Pastor of got offended by what I was writing and I got asked to take it down. I didn't take it down but I did edit a lot of it.

I was so angry at what happened and quite hurt as well. It's hard to explain why but I know that people thought that none of what I was writing happened to me. Truth is that 80% pf PK's have to seek professional help for depression sometime in their life and I am part of that statistic. I am sorry if what I have written previously (or what I am going to write in the future) has offended you. I am not doing this to make the church seem like a 'bad' place. I'm just sharing the truth.

Next Thursday a group of PK's are going to get together. It is the starting point of my dream. They don't know it but what they share will help me with knowing where to begin on my mission.

I'm so excited for the future.