praying for those who see no way out.

I don't know whether you believe in the whole 'prophetic dreams' and what not, but i know in my life God will give me dreams which mean stuff. I have a dream journal in which i write down all my dreams so i can later go back and read them. I strongly encourage you all to do this!! I never used to think dreams were from God until i went back and read over them. Even the insane, wacky ones actually made sense!!

But i feel like i need to share a dream i had on the 5th of march last year. It goes something like this:
"Listen up class!"
I groan as my photography teacher crackles commands through a loud speaker.
"Today we'll be studying portraits. I have some with me, all done on the same person. Please examine them like i taught you."
She walks around the class, handing a different photo to each person. A hush drifts into the room as each student recieves their photo. The teacher drops her last photo in front of me and crumples into the chair next to mine.
I pick up the photo and in terror almost let it go.
The picture is in black and white, except for blood stains. A young girl lies bare on the bathroom floor, razors at her wrists. Blood stained tiles decorate the floor.
"I don't... i don't understand," I stutter. "This is crazy!! Its insane!!"
She looks at me and smiles. "Everyone has their different sides," she says.
I stare at the fimiliar face on the page and cry.

This dream means so much to me, most of which i won't go into. I'm still unsure of who the girl was in the picture. When i first wrote it down i was sure it was one person, then a little later it was another, and its still continuely changing. The funny thing is (or more sad than funny) is that whoever it is, i know or later find out that they have a problem with self harming.

Self harming is an issue people either ignore completely or embrace a little too much!! People say its all for attention. Sure, some people do do it for the attention, but isn't that in itself a problem?? For someone to feel the need for attention so much that they cause harm to themselves is not right or healthy!! And those who don't do it for attention don't do it so they can suffer alone, yet they almost always do because they don't want to be called attention seekers by telling someone.

It is such a vicious circle which i think you can only fully understand unless you've been there yourself or with someone you are close to. Even then, i don't think you fully know what causes someone to cut, burn or mutilate themselves.

I urge you to take a stand, not agianst those who self harm, but for those who self harm. Not for their self harming, but for their needs.

I only follow two charities religiously. "To write love on her arms" is one of them. It highlights self harming and suicidal tendencies and offers a way out. Please look it up http://www.twloha.com/ is the website.

I wish i could talk more about this issue, but i can smell dinner cooking and i'm uber hungry!! But please join me in praying for those who see no way out.